Understanding you...

I dunno what to say, I dunno what to do
because I'm not halfway through in understanding you
I thought I'd give it a try, at first that's what I thought
I thought it'd be easy, I'd decode you with what I got
But man was I wrong, you are a big mystery
I am lost inside you, your mind is so slippery
Even if I try to get out, I slip and fall back in deeper
there's something special in that mind of yours, call me a mad believer
Its like someone has challenged me to figure out how you do your thinking
till I'm not done with it, I would be in a desert seeing a mirage drinking
the more I dive into your endless mind
I stumble onto gems which I knew I would never find
even though I'm pushing myself, maybe off my limits
I lose my perception of time, an hour seems like a couple of minutes
so please lemme through, please let me understand you
understanding you will help in understanding me too

For those who had a pet....

As I remember when I saw my pet for the first time he was a little ball of fur
At that  time I was young too, I guess he would concur
He came to our home on a winter morning, it was foggy
I remember vividly his coat was black, but a bit smoggy
he had come away from his family, he had come away from his mother
I was too childish to understand that, I was happy that I had someone to call as younger brother
first few days were silent, then we slowly knew one another
as the days passed by we grew closer even further
even though he didn't speak, neither could he understand me
I would talk to him everyday and treat him as a part of the family
after some months, a trainer stepped into his life
he was supposed to be trained as if he was meant to balance a knife
I loved the way he was and didn't want him to change
I did not want him to become uptight and act all strange
well I guess my bro was reading my mind as he gave the trainer a bite
the trainer terminated his contract and left the same night
we enjoyed each other's company for the upcoming years
I learnt a lot from him, especially how to face fears
nowadays he is not with me, he is in a better place
but I still remember the moments clearly and recall his face
I don't know if he felt for me, the way I did for him
now I guess he was my elder brother and I was younger to him

Who I am

I still can't figure my life out its confusing
Am I being used? or am I the one who's using?
I've seen everyone has their mood swings
usually its a struggle of acceptance between two things
what if you don't know what you are looking for
every successful man's story now sounds like a dreamy lore
the path less traveled sounds like a perfect way
the end of the road is thought to show us a brighter day
risk is a necessary evil that you hate to take
but how much risk are you willing to take when your own life is at stake
whether you are living on the edge, or whether you are living off it
its only you who backing yourself up, you're dependent on it
it doesn't matter if you are living in today or tomorrow
time is running out and there is no more you can borrow
if you just sit and look down at your condescending scars
you will never look up and reach out for the stars
being a true dreamer, I dream day and night
the dreams are vague ,in reality they are out of sight
dreaming the impossible never goes in vain
because you will never know happiness if you never know pain
I don't know where I'm headed but I will reach there eventually
to endure the journey I have to be strong mentally
I'm done living in a shell , I cannot live a scam
This is my own life, this is who I am

Mr. Choker

i'm looking for the right words to tell
i dont know what to reply to your mail
although i want to tell so much in one go
i still fear how will you react though
if i'm good enough to be the right person
i never want anything to hurt you, thats my only concern
whatever u say sounds music to my ears
whatever u write seems to be art
every single action of mine should drive away your fears
to keep you safe and sound was my aim from the start
there are a thousand ways of saying a single thing
still its so hard for me to spit out that single thing
some days i'm psyched up like i'm a raging bull
but i still become speechless like a kid from school
if i could play-pause and rewind my life back
i would be more impressive by cutting some slack
i dont know what you think about me
i feel like a punk stuck in the sea
and just for clarification i dunno how to swim
it meant that i'm helpless in front you before you say "whats wrong with him?"
i could come up with more similes and metaphors just to express how i feel
but still i wont be able find the words to express the real deal