Life is short

Only if I could right the wrongs, just as easily I write this song,
If I could be your savior and put all the things where it should belong.
How can I be helping others when I'm having a bad time myself,
What should I do when I'm drowning but I can hear your cry for help.
Too many things happening at the same time in different places,
Everyone has that mutual friend named Problem but he has different faces.
I can't mend the past, nor can I control the future,
its not a case with me, its the same for you too, its mutual.

It won't be a problem if we could bluff our way through all of this,
meet all the right people, be at all the right places without a miss.
we could be the king of the world, in that little corner of our mind,
that little corner in our mind is where we go blind.
Blind of all prejudices , all of those judgmental thoughts,
where there are only simple thoughts and no complex knots.
simplifying things will make you think smart, think fast,
don't think for small things, those things won't even last.
Life is too short to cry over spoiled things,
the best we can do is face whatever life brings.

Let me dream

Just like everyone has secrets to keep,
I also have my own reasons not to sleep.
Everyday is just like a variant of the day before,
like the similar yet different waves which hit the shore.
There is so much out there, so much to do,
but time is never on our side, it never plays for you.
There is a chaos in which we all stay afloat,
we don't have any control, we have nothing to gloat.
We never found the happiness which is true till the end,
we never found a lie which we won't break no matter how much we bend.
I find sleep as an answer to whatever is happening,
my dreams are safe from whatever life will bring.
I make those dreams, I break them whenever I want to,
I don't have to go through the dreams which I don't want to.
Everything occurs under my wish, changes are under my control,
I don't have to be answerable to anyone except my own soul.
We usually find peace in our dreams, its a familiar place,
even if it all happens in our brain, we never run out of space.
Lately I have not having any dreams, they are getting rare,
my mind wants to dream, but its gasping for a breath of fresh air.
My mind is tired, its too exhausted to think
I am dead , out in a matter of a blink.
When you want to dream and you can't get any,
your mind is still tired of the blank sleep which ain't worth a penny.
Sleep has become a chore instead of something to wait for,
because no matter whenever I sleep, I'm not dreaming anymore.
Let all this be a phase, be it a mirage for whatever it seems,
I don't want to sleep, I want to dream, just let me dream.

Random road to 50

you told me all my writings are sad,
if only happy was the only feeling i ever had,
but then again I can write some good things about you
but that would be banal because compliments follow you
i'll start to write something good about myself,
but if i start explaining about me then you would recommend me some mental help,
lets start from the top,
i'll clarify one thing, i'm not the cream of the crop,
first impression was never my expertise, not even now,
but don't count me out yet I haven't taken my bow,
the fat lady hasn't sung, she hasn't even taken the center stage,
consider i'm the book, and you haven't finished the first page,
i generally talk random, most of it is erratic,
they are triggered in my brain where the thought process is sporadic,
i may not have reached the top, i may not have a spotlight,
i wont be going down so easy, not without a fight,
words are temporary, you read it and forget it,
but the words will be remembered if you actually did it.
i won't start an inspirational banter, i'm not that of a bore,
its hard to judge a bird not until it soars.
it may be an eagle or a falcon whose ascent will always grow,
or it maybe a backstabbing traitor like your ordinary crow.
here i go again i went back into my animated mind,
its just too interesting in there, its one of a kind.
i don't know where i'm goin with this or where this will end,
i said the truth, coz its meaningless to pretend.
the fact that i wrote this whole thing was just to see,
how well can I write, I was just testing me,
I know its not the best I've written nor does it come close,
but its my 50th verse so I'll strike my victory pose.
i don't know how much can i write or how well it'll be,
but I reached a milestone, and I'm glad that you're here to see.

Just so normal...

I'm just so normal that its a shame

I'm just so normal and I'm the one to blame

I'm just so normal I can't decide where to begin

I'm just so normal that the normalcy eats me from within

Everyday I wake up and see the man in the mirror

Everyday I see the person becoming less clearer

There's no much left to do, so much left to see

there's a big graveyard for dreams dying inside me

We all had so many dreams, what we tried to become

But most of us let it all go, in the end we all succumb

I'm moving in the same direction, maybe I'll give up too

It'll be hard for me to admit that I'd do it too

Its hard for me to think to strangle my dreams to death

Its the same suffocation you feel when you run outta breath

There are those few who hold on to their dreams

No matter how stupid or meaningless it seems

If you achieve it you will get satisfaction and pleasure

But if you give up on it, you just poisoned yourself with a poison that you can't even measure

Best for you

if u wanted the best for yourself and not willing to toil
this life is not for you, be ready to taste the soil
get out of the way before u hurt yourself
before you find yourself on the floor asking for help
yes u prepared for it for a long time,
since u planned to overcome it after u saw it for the first time
i know how it feels when u see something u want
but its out of ur reach and somewhere in the back of ur mind u know u cant
you run expecting u will grab hold of ur aim
but the gap never closes in, the distance remains the same
i'm not trying to bring out your pain and frustration
its just my way of waking you up, my flavor of motivation
i'm not anything better, i run for my dreams too
till now i might not have caught a couple of them too
why should u listen about my stories, when u can build your own
why should u bow down to any other's success, when u can bow to your own
if i could write in 4 lines what to do with your life, i'd be a freaking genius
but i haven't figured my own life out, i'm no sensation, i'm hardly 20plus
we have to find our ways to ride the wave of life and still be living
all i know it aint easy, the least we can do for our own dreams is a little believing

Understanding you...

I dunno what to say, I dunno what to do
because I'm not halfway through in understanding you
I thought I'd give it a try, at first that's what I thought
I thought it'd be easy, I'd decode you with what I got
But man was I wrong, you are a big mystery
I am lost inside you, your mind is so slippery
Even if I try to get out, I slip and fall back in deeper
there's something special in that mind of yours, call me a mad believer
Its like someone has challenged me to figure out how you do your thinking
till I'm not done with it, I would be in a desert seeing a mirage drinking
the more I dive into your endless mind
I stumble onto gems which I knew I would never find
even though I'm pushing myself, maybe off my limits
I lose my perception of time, an hour seems like a couple of minutes
so please lemme through, please let me understand you
understanding you will help in understanding me too

For those who had a pet....

As I remember when I saw my pet for the first time he was a little ball of fur
At that  time I was young too, I guess he would concur
He came to our home on a winter morning, it was foggy
I remember vividly his coat was black, but a bit smoggy
he had come away from his family, he had come away from his mother
I was too childish to understand that, I was happy that I had someone to call as younger brother
first few days were silent, then we slowly knew one another
as the days passed by we grew closer even further
even though he didn't speak, neither could he understand me
I would talk to him everyday and treat him as a part of the family
after some months, a trainer stepped into his life
he was supposed to be trained as if he was meant to balance a knife
I loved the way he was and didn't want him to change
I did not want him to become uptight and act all strange
well I guess my bro was reading my mind as he gave the trainer a bite
the trainer terminated his contract and left the same night
we enjoyed each other's company for the upcoming years
I learnt a lot from him, especially how to face fears
nowadays he is not with me, he is in a better place
but I still remember the moments clearly and recall his face
I don't know if he felt for me, the way I did for him
now I guess he was my elder brother and I was younger to him

Who I am

I still can't figure my life out its confusing
Am I being used? or am I the one who's using?
I've seen everyone has their mood swings
usually its a struggle of acceptance between two things
what if you don't know what you are looking for
every successful man's story now sounds like a dreamy lore
the path less traveled sounds like a perfect way
the end of the road is thought to show us a brighter day
risk is a necessary evil that you hate to take
but how much risk are you willing to take when your own life is at stake
whether you are living on the edge, or whether you are living off it
its only you who backing yourself up, you're dependent on it
it doesn't matter if you are living in today or tomorrow
time is running out and there is no more you can borrow
if you just sit and look down at your condescending scars
you will never look up and reach out for the stars
being a true dreamer, I dream day and night
the dreams are vague ,in reality they are out of sight
dreaming the impossible never goes in vain
because you will never know happiness if you never know pain
I don't know where I'm headed but I will reach there eventually
to endure the journey I have to be strong mentally
I'm done living in a shell , I cannot live a scam
This is my own life, this is who I am

Mr. Choker

i'm looking for the right words to tell
i dont know what to reply to your mail
although i want to tell so much in one go
i still fear how will you react though
if i'm good enough to be the right person
i never want anything to hurt you, thats my only concern
whatever u say sounds music to my ears
whatever u write seems to be art
every single action of mine should drive away your fears
to keep you safe and sound was my aim from the start
there are a thousand ways of saying a single thing
still its so hard for me to spit out that single thing
some days i'm psyched up like i'm a raging bull
but i still become speechless like a kid from school
if i could play-pause and rewind my life back
i would be more impressive by cutting some slack
i dont know what you think about me
i feel like a punk stuck in the sea
and just for clarification i dunno how to swim
it meant that i'm helpless in front you before you say "whats wrong with him?"
i could come up with more similes and metaphors just to express how i feel
but still i wont be able find the words to express the real deal

My version of Here Without You(3 Doors Down)

it makes me a thousand times stronger, when i see your pretty face
then again what can i do to make it simpler, to have an option except walking away
but now there is not turning back into old days
there is no point in looking back into mistakes

i'm here without you baby, but ur always on my mind
i think about you baby, and i dream about u every night
i'm here without you baby, but u dont miss me it seems
and tonight its only memories

the nights keep on going with the same thoughts every night in my mind
even though i search for you, i dont know where to find
i doubt your existence, if you are there please say hello
dont eat up my hope and let me walk on my lonely road

i'm here without you baby, but ur always on my mind
i think about you baby, and i dream about u every night
i'm here without you baby, but u dont miss me it seems
and tonight girl its only memories

everything u did, everything u said
it still rings in my head
and when time passes by, everything will fade away
but my love for you will stay the same

i'm here without you baby, but ur always on my mind
i think about you baby, and i dream about u every night
i'm here without you baby, but u dont miss me it seems
and tonight girl its only memories