Thoughts

time speaks a lot , but am i the one who doesnt listen
everyone learns something from time, which lesson did i miss, what am i missing
things far and near, both seem like such a big mess
everyone is saying it out loud i'm the one who does supress
supress my feelings, supress my thoughts

idea comes so easily, we never know when we strike gold
when we realise we had done something great the idea would become too old
fast life might keep our eyes from all the little things
we are too busy to hear the little song that the little bird sings
people may empower or belittle u , some even dont know what u have been through
people outshine u or u outshine them,but remember whoever is at the top there's always someone above them
when u least expect it things come to existence
coz when a little ray of light passes through it shows the diamond's excellence
thoughts always find their way to their actions
actions always find their way to the reactions
but which of the thoughts really lead to satisfaction
how many thoughts are being followed up by the action which led to satisfaction
we never keep track of things, which led to what
there's no meaning in the journey if we come to the end and never know where we start

The Circle of Hate

this one is for haters who never believed in anything

who want to get u down from the top by any means

who are ready to raise hell to burn ur every dream

who are pleased when u kneel down in defeat and scream

what made u think like this, why are u so heartless?

what happened in ur life which made u care less?

i guess someone hurt u too, that's how u are accustomed to

u put up ur guard up even when u dont want to

probably u know more than anyone else will ever do

u know whom to throw away and whom to keep close to u

i just hope u know how much time u waste in the hating

no one stopped u from spending ur time emancipating

but u just gave up and let ur hate do the talking

u are the king of a fantasy land where no one lives except the king

u will see what u want to see and hear what u want to hear

u think ur racing through life but ur still stuck in the first gear

stand in front of the mirror and what do u see

u will see urself trying to break free

now where am i going with this, why am i saying all this

u injected hate in my mind and now i'm gonna hate u for this

Alter Ego

that's it i give up , i've tried every possible way to write

i still cant see a proper verse in my sight

i tried to keep the mood hip, i tried to keep it light

i even tried to write something which ended in a fight

but no ! every time i crash landed then the plane

every attempt, every try just ended in vain

i tried to give a it a shot but then i failed at it again

it felt like the blood has stopped coming to my brain

what the hell? why cant i come up with something good

its like i've tried every possible angle that i could

but wait ,there must be something missing in the whole recipe

knocked my brain cells around,to find the older me

still anonymous, still the master of his own will

he won't come out of the shadows, he will stand still

i know ur there in my head, show urself

why dont u come out when i need ur help

when u show urself with all blazing guns

u can blind me with the aura of ur blazing sun

where are u ? i know ur still in my brain

where are u? i know someday u'll show up again

Bad Day

This is just an attempt of making the readers more engrossed, I don't know how much this will work and how much this won't. So, just read the following instructions below.

1. stream this link (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6QcabA-8D8) to the full and dont start playing until it has been streamed to atleast 2mins mark.

( ALL THE RIGHTS TO THE ABOVESAID LINK GOES TO THE UPLOADER OF THE VIDEO. )

2. once the video has been streamed completely, start playing the vid but start to read the note at 0:12 mark (12th second of the vid)...and keep on reading at a normal pace

3. Clear ur mind! You need to have a good imagination to emulate it in ur mind !

4. GOOD LUCK TO ME AND U ! :P

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he returned from work to find his door unlocked

a drop of sweat slid across his face as he stood there in shock

he entered in the living room to see his books tossed here and there

walked across the room to the dining hall to see the scrambled chairs

slowly he put his bag down and checked if anything was missing

expecting the intruder was still there he grabbed a knife from the kitchen

he couldnt figure out what was the motive coz there was nothing missing

cautiously he walked around the house if he had kept anything valuable, stood there reminiscing

he walked slowly towards the floor above

on the stairs he saw a couple of leather gloves

as he walked into his bedroom he found a guy laying motionless on his bed

when he moved in closer to the person he found him already dead

multiple knife wounds on his face, several stab wounds were clear from a distance

he rushed downstairs to call the police the next instance,

when he hurried his way down the stairs he found the cops already waiting

seeing the knife in his hand the cops started to interrogate him

he was too flustered and couldn't say anything making sense

the officers got agitated seeing this guy aggravated the situation became more tense

he moved in closer to the officers to explain his case

with the knife in his hand he got punched in his face

his lights were out, he was out cold

he should have done what the officers had told

when his eyes opened he was in the same room as the dead body

only difference this time was his hands and the knife were bloody

too stunned by the blood in his hands and on the knife

he still couldn't believe it happening to him in real life

as he slowly picked himself up from the floor

he saw a whole armed swat team at the door

they picked him up and took him under the charge of murder

he still tried to explain his innocence but the cops didn't want to hear any further

he was dragged through his own home in the bloodied clothes

the neighbors hid their kids coz they didnt want them to see a murderer up-close

astounded by the rate of events, he was just dumbstruck

what was happening with him? was it just bad luck?

luck cant be on the same page as the events that happened with this guy

he surpassed the limits of chance and possibilites that he could possibly defy

there was not a clear thought that was going on in his mind

or jail would be the only solace that he could afford at this time

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• I don't know how many of u really enjoyed it with the ambience provided...depends on ur mood also.
• Yes, the story has loopholes, I can go for a sequel(depending on the feedback) making it more explanatory coz if I write a verse of 50+ lines even I won't have the patience to read it in one go. :P
• The title for this is also variable, I couldn't come up with anything , so if u have any, plz do tell me. :)
• For those who followed the instructions and went through the whole thing ! thank u for ur participation and patience ! :)

Lost

i never thought i'd ride by this same turn

i thought i had been beyond the point of no return

so many changes, so much that has changed

i can't take it all in, i'm just feeling strange

people seem familiar, but i cant recall them

i guess someday i'll probably do good something for them

u think ur lonely, take a good look again

blinded by ur own pain to see others' pain

u've got a heart?!! well i've got one in me too

blinded by ur judgement you never see things like i do

same faces, same cases, its just a new stage

different logic, different thinking, welcome to the new age

what am i saying, why am i writing, i've absolutely no clue

sometimes i look myself in the mirror and find a bumbling fool

do u feel the same way like i do? are my words making any sense to u?

what should i do if i fail to express myself,

am i just incapable of expressing of my own self?

Questions

the second chapter of ur life opens, the pressure is so provoking

even when u havent put ur first the step the cameras are already rolling

no margin for error but u can see ur hands shaking

will it be a disaster or a lifetime of greatness in the making?

all the answers that u seek are just a bunch of questions now

will all the answers be known before u take ur bow?

can u change ur life or will the life change u ?

u stand their clueless with blank stare thinking of what to do

take a plunge, take the leap that's what they always said

but what if i can't fly and wind up dead instead

take the opportunity when it comes, is that the key to success?

if u take the wrong turn, and end up in a bloody mess

i can guarantee that then no one will support u

all will shake their heads as if they don't know u

life is never static, it always changes its dynamics

all u can do is adjust urself to its mechanics

life is full of uncertainties, that's the only thing certain

its about how u take it that matters before they close the curtain

Happy Mother's Day

you were the first person whom i ever knew

you are still the same person no matter what i put u through

you always took care of me even when i was at my worst

you always knew what to say like u had it rehearsed

i can't even sum up whatever u did for me in these lines

u are like an guardian angel , u always know what's on my mind

never lost ur faith in me even when i was in shatters

u taught me that love is what actually matters

u always made me feel like i was a diamond in the rough

i wonder what i did do to have such an angel sent from above

they say people change with time but i ain't seen any change in u

ur still the same strong person no matter what life puts u through

i promise i will repay u back for whtever u did for me

its just not words, i will do it for u eventually

i still remember the time when u used to tuck me into bed

oops now its sound childish, just forget now what i said

now this is what happens when i get lost in thoughts

well u know how my mind works, i wont explain,lets cut it short

i just wanted to say that i know something too

if i say love u mum , u'll say i love u too

Reality Check

what kind of world we live in where we speak before we think

destroying emotions and changing motion in a blink

wanting the spotlight to shine on us

but whom are you performing for if all are performers

u are not the only one standing out of crowd

if ur words have no substance it wont matter if u keep shouting out loud

if everyone started speaking what they really thought

it won't be divine, in fact you would see severed throats

its not how u tell it , it matters how u take it

vengeance runs wild, all u want to do is just repay it

all your morals and rules now look so jaded

its so easy to move along once u hated

well let me ask all the haters one question for them to see

what are the chances of u surviving if all u had are enemies

dont pretend to be the best when u know u are not

dont draw any conclusion on basis of a thought

dont throw words if u havent had them weighed

otherwise it'd be just some more crap that u said

i never wanted to put this right up in ur face

this is how i want it to end , i rest my case

I'm tired...

i'm tired of scribbling on papers, has made me insane

i'm tired of pouring my heart out , its all in vain

i'm tired of being honest, it makes no sense

i'm tired of the surroundings being so dense

i'm tired of putting the pieces of the puzzle together

i'm tired of standing in the rain waiting for a better weather

i'm tired of listening to music to calm my mind

i'm tired of finding excuses to feel good ,i'm running out of time

i'm tired of letting all go when i dont want to

i'm tired of understanding things that i dont need to

i'm tired of walking in a straight line, my path needs some curves

i'm tired of waiting for the good days when i get what i deserve

i'm tired of being at the receiving end , catching all ur pitches

i'm tired of hiding these scars , i'm running out of stiches

......

i'm just tired...tired to explain u how i feel

just tired...

Short one..

every day , every moment i think of you

u are always on my list of things to do

i've never ever been so flustered in my talk

u are always on my clock day and night tick tock

its been a year i guess i know u

but i cant get u out of my mind no matter what i do

u are on my heart's wall like a permanent print

all i want to tell u is i love u and i'll be damned if i didnt

u can call me crazy, u can tell me a bore

but baby all i ask is to love me some more

u can tell me to leave, u can tell me to shut up,

but i will keep telling that i love u till the time runs up

i keep finding ways to get close to u

even if that requires me to get a beating from u

coz the closer i get the more i see

how beautiful an angel on earth can be

Prisoner of my mind

usually my night goes by counting the stars

but tonight i wish to see a shooting star

to take me back to the time when my life wasn't this marred

back to the time when my life wasn't this scarred

i'm a convict of my own action,mislead myself with too much devotion

now i reap the consequences of my imagination

i tried to do all i can to make it all happen

but as i heard from Forrest Gump ,shit happens

and i dont blame it on u either for not keeping it together

none of us are gifted to control the weather

whether i tried my best or did my worse

we just never happened as if hexed by a curse

people search for happiness, so did i

but its hard to wake up from a dream so glorified

i'm caged in the prison of my mind

just can't find enough courage to let you leave

just can't let you free from the dreams i weaved

i was a fool to take you for granted

i just took u as an object that i always wanted

that was my mistake, its just me floating in my dreams

that glittering thing is not always gold, everything is not what it seems

i take my words that hurt you, take it all and put it in a garbage

i dont want to think this is all staged

this is the best way i can tell it everything in one go

but still i see u as a star in my sky with a dreamy glow.

A short story...

once upon a time not too long ago,

there was a guy, just an average joe.

he thought everything happens by an act of good,

he thought karma acts as it should

belief is what he believed in

didn't leave his small happy town much often

everything went well for him till he left his home

he bid farewell to his family and friends to make a new home

ignorant of the people of the big city and its radioactive ways

he would soon realise not to believe in everything that anyone says

slowly and eventually he got to know the trade of the radioactive zone

realised that there were vultures ready to pick his bones

the person changed into those one of them who were around him

never did he find true happiness he remained always grim

days passed, months flew, years followed

he just kept on working as if there is no tomorrow

got indulged in his work so much forgot about his home

returned back to his home after after a couple of decades or more and found everthing's gone

didn't find his friends, couldn't trace them back coz he was too busy all these years,

all those new faces of his city could never replace the ones near and dear.

probably it was too late for him to realise his mistakes,

now even though he was successful now, there was nobody to share the cakes.